30 Days of Kink: Day 4 – Early Signs
Day 4: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hint at your kinks?
I was such a shy, withdrawn teenager. All I thought about was my horse & reading. And boys, but less so. Kink would have been right outta there.
There were two things that might have indicated where my future interests would lie, however. One I don’t consider “kink” but definitely is my sexuality, the other is definitely kink, but it’s hard for me to say that any 14 year old that read what I did wouldn’t become aroused…
I lived in a small mountain town with my mother and stepfather and spent summers with my father in Berkeley, CA. One summer, when I was about 14, and just becoming aware of myself as a sexual being, I was in a park near my dad’s apartment. I saw two women kissing there, and holding hands, and just acting like a normal couple. I watched them, surreptitiously, for a long time. I was deeply aroused, and also ashamed by that arousal. But I was also something else…something I can’t really name. It was the first time I had ever considered women loving each other, both sexually and romantically. It was an eye–and heart–opening moment for me.
Later that week I looked up in an alternative paper where the local Gay/Lesbian Center was, and I walked by it several times that summer, but never worked up the nerve to go in.
The second memory has to do more directly with kink. I found a copy of Nancy Friday’s My Secret Garden, in which women told their sexual fantasies. The ones I remember most? The enema and alien sex ones. LOL But I remember paging through the book to get to the kinky ones, in whatever form.
Check out the list below for other kinky blogger’s answers to Day 4′s question!
He Says She Says
Roles Defining Rules
There’s also someone new doing the 30 Days, and though she hasn’t gotten to Day 4 yet, I wanted to point out her blog, because it’s lots of fun (and okay, hot and sexy too…):
Molly’s Daily Kiss