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Progress

Jan 24, 2015 | Posted by in Before | 4
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It’s been a little over a month since we closed on the house. It was a rainy, dreary day, and our real estate agent showed up with a nasty cold that both W and I contracted, but it was a wonderful day. That day I was simply filled with excitement – the anxiety showed upRead more …

“How are you?”

Jan 15, 2015 | Posted by in Before | 2

My sister texted me a “Hey, Sis, how ya doing?” message this morning. Being in the car, on the road, I couldn’t reply back with the usual “Fine, how are you?” message right away. And then, when I got to work, sitting in the parking lot about to type that message back to her, IRead more …

Last Day in Eleuthera: a Scavenger Hunt, Part 1

Jan 13, 2015 | Posted by in Before | 2

It’s cold here in the Midwest, though not as cold as had been predicted. But still – I am so not a cold weather person. Which is why I always vacation somewhere warm and tropical, of course. What with the new house, it looks like an exotic vacation is out this year. In fact IRead more …

I’m so easy

Jan 6, 2015 | Posted by in Before | 1

“Good girl,” he says, just one line in an email, but that’s enough. I feel that little pull, between my belly and my cunt, that twinge, that barest-hint-of-a-throb as I read it. I’m that easy. We’d had a difficult, but productive, discussion early this morning before work, culminating in a couple of emails later thatRead more …

Waking Up in the New House

Dec 30, 2014 | Posted by in Before | 1

I woke early this morning at the new house, in what will eventually be the guest bedroom, grey light filtering through the temporary sheers that cover the windows, and felt such a sense of contentment, of rightness and belonging, that it nearly brought tears to my eyes. I don’t have my desk here yet, soRead more …

Sexing Him in the Morning

Dec 24, 2014 | Posted by in Before | 3

Having sex makes me write. We had sex this morning, and here I am writing. Imagine that. I say “we” had sex, and of course “we” did, since it was his hands, his fingers and his cock, but really? It was me sexing him. Using him for my sexual gratification. He may have gotten aRead more …

Feeling Lonely in a Crowded Life

Dec 22, 2014 | Posted by in Before | 5

I had a bit of a cry last night. Yes, the same night I posted all about the house, and how it’s all coming along, and how amazing it all is – I was also feeling overwhelmed and filled with anxiety. I’m not exactly sure what the cry was about, though when I read KaylaRead more …

News Flash!

Dec 7, 2014 | Posted by in Before | 5

We bought a house. We closed on it Friday. Now we begin the renovations before we move in in January. First up: tear out the (newly installed) tile to reveal the wood floor beneath it in the breakfast room.  This is what the tile looked like (well, still does until we rip it all out):Read more …

Community

Dec 4, 2014 | Posted by in Before, blogs, writing | 5

It’s strange how insular – isolated, even – one can become, even out here on the big wide internet.  As a blogger, I have a fairly narrow focus, and belong to a fairly small subset of bloggers, and then within that subset I inhabit an even smaller circle, writing about kink and alternative relationships almostRead more …

I got a fever…

Nov 18, 2014 | Posted by in Before | 0
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My brain in is a mode of feverish activity…so many thoughts, ideas, musings! I can’t stop them from circling around my brain and pouring out of me – my mouth is going a hundred miles an hour as well as my brain. None of these thoughts is kinky, unfortunately, but…I’m okay with that. ;-) IRead more …